Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Creature Of Habit

Every morning I wake up with an agenda. A sort of direction I want to take during the day and with my life in general. 9/10 times I fail.

I'll say to myself, "Today you're going to do X,Y,Z and steer clear of A&B because you know it's not good for you." One guess as to how the day ends... YUP, with me doing A&B.

And the best part is I then have the AUDACITY to be upset about it. That's when The Voices are like, "Bitch, what the fuck did you THINK was going to happen? We TOLD you to steer clear. We TOLD you to do X,Y,Z. But you did what you wanted to anyway, so fuck you and your hurt feelings and disastrous circumstances."

Still, I have that 1/10 under my belt. That's something. Right?

Well, at least according to Jewel it is, so kiss my ass if you disagree. I'm siding with her on this one.

*smooches...holding on to whatever I can grab*
and thank you to those closest to me who've extended a hand. I know you understand my reluctance to take it means I'm not at rock bottom. I'll be OK, and I love you for even offering.