Friday, May 10, 2013

She Is Frequently Kind And She's Suddenly Cruel

Part of being a recovering Catholic is dealing with residual guilt. About everything. Earlier this week K asked me to do her hair, but I was in the middle of my morning routine and it's so important to me to stay on course, so I told her no. The guilt followed me all day.

On Wednesday, when the rain was out of control, N reminded me that she didn't have an umbrella, or rather she didn't know where her umbrella was. I responded with, "Why should I give you mine and get soaked because you don't keep after your stuff?" Again, guilt followed. I ended up giving her money to buy an umbrella and walked her to the bus stop with mine.

Times like that I have to remind myself that I'm a good person. I love my family and I do for them whenever I can. Same with my friends. So if once in a while I decide to look out for me and my happiness, I should not feel guilty about it.

I'm still a good person. And most of y'all are good people, too (except for YOU; you know who you are!). Don't let anyone make you feel bad for taking some time to enjoy your own company or do the thing you really want to do for yourself, whether it be a solo movie date, a solo ice cream-fest or a solo day on the couch with iTunes and overdue library books.

Personal time is my right; it does not make me "bad" to indulge in it.

*smooches...about to engage is some selfish activities*
and I won't apologize for it, either!